Totally late with posting about this cuz I never keep up with this tumblr anymore (sowwy!). I suck asses!
So who else is gutted about the release of Otep’s last album?
Tbh I don’t know how I feel about it. Kinda sad that they’re not going to be making music anymore, but personally I haven’t been all that hyped up on their last two albums. What do you guys think?
I was at last nights show in Il. I was so nervous having a horrible anxiety “disorder” since childhood. But if it wasn’t Otep I wouldn’t have gone. I got to say, Im not sure how I feel about it. I’m not a critic or a follower. I’m an artist myself with a passion for the same beliefs that ironically happen to be the same as “yours” (not sure whom this goes to) but I didn’t not know that when I started my ways so to speak. But my intent here is to ask one question.. Is every single person you meet or take a photo with just a “fan”? Im not a “fan” of that. My drawings are access to deal with the pain I carry. My life hasn’t been a teen sensation or a perfect future. Nor has it been fun. I’ve been beaten and spit on. I’ve been dragged under a moving vehicle. I have lost my best friend and my little brother. Im now reading about where his body has been donated to save others and not himself. I’ve also dealt with the disappearance of my older brother for six months in fear of the worst in a hate crime against his sexual preference, I came out of the “closet” when I was 14 to stand next to him and defended him threw out his bullying.
I look to your words and your beautiful… actually BEAUTIFUL mind, for copping. I’m not a groupie, thou I may have gotten a photo with you. The things I wanted to ask were merely unimportant. Because I don’t look to you as a famous singer, maybe inspirational yes. Your words hit close to home. Your strength is amazing.. And I wish thou things I can maybe relate too, I could be as strong as you. I also wish some of us, were more then a fan, and more of someone reaching out to someone built with such beauty, inspiration, strength, wisdom, and so much more.
Again I don’t know who this goes to or if anyone really gives a shit. And I apologize for throwing my sad stories out there but I just felt it was important to say.
The show was amazing. Something I would never imagine I would have the will power to go to.
Just wanted to either make a statement of what’s on my mind or, get an answer to my lingering thoughts.